This week certainly had some interesting experiences that really help me to understand that God’s hand is in this great work. No matter what happens as long as I am trying to do my best even though it may not seem like it or I feel I could have done more, God is aware of everything that happens and what is best. This week I have had once again experienced the feelings that Elder Holland described in his April 2014 General Conference address when he said, “So here we have the burden of those called to bear the messianic message. In addition to teaching, encouraging, and cheering people on (that is the pleasant part of discipleship), from time to time these same messengers are called upon to worry, to warn, and sometimes just to weep (that is the painful part of discipleship).”
Well, this week it was all of that! So it’s been rough because the family that we were preparing to be baptized, Joe and Alana, this next month half decided that they would like to take a break from having missionaries come over. Something happened, someone said something that didn’t sit well with them, and they decided to take a step back for the time being. I hope that they will once again open their hearts and be willing to progress in the Church. They are still reading from the Book of Mormon which is like my glimmer of hope for them right now, but we shall see what happens next. So this week we’ve been worrying a lot about them.
Switching gears for a second we met with Tony who is just great at asking us questions that make us think! He is a really friendly person and I really think he is genuinely curious as to what we really believe. He has had this question, and I am not sure if I mentioned it before, but he wants to know why we are so driven to give selfless service and why we are generally such a well behaved people. And so we have been meeting with him for the past couple of weeks and we have basically been answering his questions while trying to teach him about the Restoration. So hopefully this next week we can teach him the full restoration lesson and perhaps that will clear up a lot of his questions.
Also another crazy amazing experience that we had this week while we were doing our “Power Hour” after our district meeting and all the different companionship split into one or two areas and we just went knocking on doors, we had an amazing experience. It was the first person we talked too! She has been through soooooooo much in her life. When she was telling us about her life story and what not she was crying intermittently which was making me cry and I don’t cry very easily, I’m pretty buff when it comes to emotion. Anyway, so we were telling her that we didn’t think it was a mistake that we were led to her door by God today. And she seemed totally accepting of what we had to share with her! It was amazing! BUT THEN! We call her like the next day to invite her to church and confirm our appointment for next week and she just tells us that she can’t do this and that she would like it if we wouldn’t come by her house any more. She said it’s because it’s too emotionally overwhelming for her to be thinking about her life. So we were pretty devastated by that and my heart just ached for her. Pretty rough.
Jumping ahead we met with a lady named Tamara who is just so awesome and loves the missionaries! She basically believes everything that we believe! Except for a few parts, mainly that there is only Heaven and Hell and not the Kingdoms of Glory that we believe in. Needless to say that we had such an interesting conversation with her! She even believes that little children are saved through the Grace of Christ!
To wrap my experiences this week I wanted to share with you how amazing it was that we were able to attend the Medford Temple this Thursday! It was just amazing! I was so happy to be there. I am happy that I was also able to go with Elder Kunz. He is just awesome and he always has something funny, happy, or witty to say. He is very insightful and always wanting to be obedient. It was great being able to attend the Temple with him. We even took nice pictures!
I am so grateful for the blessings of the Temple. It truly is the Lord’s house where ever you go. I can always feel of His presence there. This week I was noticing that I just didn’t have as much light in my eyes and I normally have seen, but after attending the Temple I just could see it again shining through. It’s something I can’t explain other than I know that the Light of Christ dwells in each of us like flame. It can grow and burn bright within, or if left to itself can be easily extinguished.
Thanks again for all that you do!